A few weeks ago my anxiety had peaked because I hadn't felt anything yet that I could pinpoint as the girls moving. My doctor had asked if I had felt them yet. Then people at work, friends and family started asking. Every time I said no I worried a little more.
Two weeks ago we spent a long weekend in Tennessee with my family. The klove verse of the day was John 11:27. I read it and realized in that moment that I wasn't going to stop worrying without resting in the peace that can only come from Jesus. So I said a prayer and asked God to release me from my worry and then I posted this image on Facebook. Friends and family reached out via FB, texts, and messenger to tell me not to worry, that first time moms a lot of times don't feel anything until after 20 weeks.
Two weeks ago we spent a long weekend in Tennessee with my family. The klove verse of the day was John 11:27. I read it and realized in that moment that I wasn't going to stop worrying without resting in the peace that can only come from Jesus. So I said a prayer and asked God to release me from my worry and then I posted this image on Facebook. Friends and family reached out via FB, texts, and messenger to tell me not to worry, that first time moms a lot of times don't feel anything until after 20 weeks.
That night when we laid down to go to bed I felt some fluttering in the pit of my stomach and I thought is that them? I fell asleep dreaming about my babies waving their little hands and stomping their little feet with the biggest movements their tiny bodies could muster just so I could feel them.
Through the next week I didn't feel much - a small bump here and a little ripple there. Most of the time it was hard to tell if I was feeling them move or if I was feeling my intestines work! At my ultrasound last Friday there were several times where one of them moved on the screen and I could feel a little ripple at the same time. I knew then that what I had felt since the weekend prior was their small movements.
It's almost like the ultrasound jump started them. Ever since Friday they've been on the move! One of my managers described the first movements as how a fish rippling through the water would feel if it were in your stomach. That's a pretty accurate description. It's little flutters, butterflies, ripples that last just a moment and then disappear. They are active when I am sitting and laying down the most. Some one told me that's because when I am walking my movements lull them to sleep. When I stop moving they wake up and start a dance party. If I really want to get them going I just eat some sugar. They get a kick out of that and I get a literal kick out of them!
I've never felt anything like this before. It's completely foreign, completely random, and completely awesome. I feel little movements all over my belly. It makes me wonder if they're just swimming laps in there.
None of their movements have been big enough to feel outside of my body yet. I've tried to have Alex feel them when I lay down at night but he can't feel what I can from the outside. Soon their movements will be felt on the outside as they grow stronger and their movements get bigger. I can't wait for Alex to feel the thump of a punch from the inside out.
Making humans is quite miraculous.
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